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Red octagonal shapes.

Directing the traffic to stop.

So insignificant and mundane.

No one knows the value I have put into these red shapes

that hang so unnoticed on metal poles

throughout our cities, towns and neighborhoods.

Let me take endless photographs

and mail you the film

with my .45 cent stamps.

So you can share in the memory of my precious stop signs.

Of all the stops signs I see

I long to feel all the kisses I’ve missed,

the kisses I’ve lacked.

The ones I will never receive.

I have come to the decision and realization that I am quite fond of you.

I already knew that I fancied you and all of your mannerisms.

I know that I longed for a soul like yours.

But I’m ready.

I no longer am going to care what the bigoted people in this small town say or think.

I deserve to be happy with whomever I want, whenever I want.

That who is you boo bear. :)

I want you fully.

I want to be fully yours.

[summerisover.]

I’ve realized I want to make you a part of my family and me be a part of yours.

I want to be introduced as being your girl, and you my man.

Your soul is beautiful and I want to claim it.

I’m excited to grow to love you.

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my brain right now ^ 

my soul right now.

i dont know how to put the things in my brain into words.

bye.

New term I learned today.

Someone who will help you and hold you accountable for your walk with God.

Someone GOD PUTS in your life, to make you realize he is working in it.

A person who you can go to, explain your inner thoughts (spiritual or otherwise) and have them uplift you and take care of you.

When my teacher/pastor was describing this to me today, instantly… I thought of mine.

That I have been blessed with such a wonderful friend in my life.

MY QUARTER<3 

love you hern.

Thanks for always uplifting me and being such a good influence on me.

I hope that I can continue the job of being the same to you, because we need each other. :)

honestly, sometimes I cannot handle music.

It speaks to my SOUL.

I need to meet someone, just ONE MAN who will feel the same.

Falling in love together via music? I couldn’t ask for more.

I Love, You Love - John Legend

Chariot - Gavin Degraw

one week and 3 days till I see him LIVE!

Its getting more and more difficult for me to be friends with people who make poor life decisions.

Not that I am judging them, calling them bad people, or anything like that - Its just getting more difficult to be friends with people who go against what I believe to be right.

My conscience - of right and wrong is beginning to get stronger - stronger than its ever been.

Honestly, I try to fight it because I like some of the people I know who do dumb things. But at the end of the day… I’m just sad for them and myself.

I know I can’t change anyone and I’m not trying to - Its just so difficult for me to be around them.

Honestly, I’ve become more of a hermit lol

Its like the ‘good’ people who share more of my same morals are either… prudes or idk.. they don’t like making friends or SOMETHING IDK.

I’m really not a bad person - I’m actually a GREAT friend. (not to toot my own horn lol)

Its just emotionally and spiritually frustrating that it is hard to better yourself and find good influences - because honestly a lot of them are rude haha

Yes I’d rather be friends with the person who makes bad decisions in life but is a nice good person. But my soul isn’t letting me.

Is this what growing up feels like?