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How gay is this.

I feel like Blair near the end of season 4.

Here she is with her charming Prince (literally) still in love with Chuck.

Chuck tells her that though they may have the great love, Louis (the Prince) is the right love.

The simple, light, not complicated love.

While Chuck is the intense, complicated, deep and dark love.

Which love is most important? Which comes only once in a lifetime?

Anonymous asked: White/magenta

White: Who was your first kiss?

Bradley Scott Miller :)

It was really cute, he had the most beautiful green eyes. I had a crush on him for years when I was younger!

Now hes white trash though. YUCKY. (dont do drugs kids lol)

Magenta: What is something you barely tell anyone?

I suppose this question defeats the purpose of the question… haha

I am a very strong person, people know that - what they don’t know is that I can be surprisingly emotional and caring. I can getvery sad sometimes.

its so emotional,

it changes decisions,

it changes hearts.

It makes you realize things that normal words cannot.

This is either a good thing or a bad.

A sign or a step backwards.

*sigh

Its getting more and more difficult for me to be friends with people who make poor life decisions.

Not that I am judging them, calling them bad people, or anything like that - Its just getting more difficult to be friends with people who go against what I believe to be right.

My conscience - of right and wrong is beginning to get stronger - stronger than its ever been.

Honestly, I try to fight it because I like some of the people I know who do dumb things. But at the end of the day… I’m just sad for them and myself.

I know I can’t change anyone and I’m not trying to - Its just so difficult for me to be around them.

Honestly, I’ve become more of a hermit lol

Its like the ‘good’ people who share more of my same morals are either… prudes or idk.. they don’t like making friends or SOMETHING IDK.

I’m really not a bad person - I’m actually a GREAT friend. (not to toot my own horn lol)

Its just emotionally and spiritually frustrating that it is hard to better yourself and find good influences - because honestly a lot of them are rude haha

Yes I’d rather be friends with the person who makes bad decisions in life but is a nice good person. But my soul isn’t letting me.

Is this what growing up feels like?

Maudlin: tearfully or weakly emotional; foolishly sentimental; because of drunkenness;

I thought it was interesting - drunken nostalgia.